A Journey Of 100 Miles Begins With The First Step

What a bitter-sweet path I have chosen. So many things I have known for some time yet I am just now applying them to my way of life. I am persistent though, I have set my goal (attainable as well) and nothing is going to stop me from achieving it. In fact, I've never wanted anything more before in my life. It's exciting, yet scary as hell. It's euphoric, yet excruciating all at once. I have already hung up the line out in public for everyone to see, including loved ones, friends, and acquaintances. One by one I bring out a dirty defect and hang it up. For some it hurts to see their pain as they watch. However there is no other way to truthfully, completely make it to my destination. As long as they are in my heart stinking up the place, I can't take that next step. Each step I do take is a blessing and the feeling of relief is indescribable. Some will forgive; some will not. Some ARE the dirty defaults which will be left behind. It's time to let go. With each clothes pin I place I can feel the strength build inside of me. For those I hurt, I have no right to ask for forgiveness. I am blessed if I receive it but the only forgiveness I have the right to ask for is my own. Life is about risks. Sometimes those risks are just about living on the wild side..... sometimes risks are simply allowing yourself to be human.